Occasionally, there are issues with the pregnancy that make me anxious, like the client whose blood pressure might become a little borderline near term. But I also get anxious when I am waiting for the birth of a "favorite" client. I love all my clients but I form a special bond with some. With those clients it can sometimes be almost like waiting for another grandchild.

I wonder why God made us have to go through waiting for babies this way. I'm sure it's good for us somehow. But I still don't like it much.

Last night one of those "favorite" clients called me. I've been her midwife for four babies now. She has wonderful births, we've become quite close and I just love her.

She called to give me a head's up. She only felt a couple of contractions. So you'd think that I wouldn't get anxious over that but I did. And as it turned out, it was just a false alarm. I didn't really loose sleep over it but every time I woke up, I was still thinking about her and wondering. I have to admit that I was anxious.

You see, I missed her birth the first time I was her midwife. She lives a couple of hours away and the baby arrived before I could get there. I didn't miss her next two babies. I got to those births in plenty of time. But was anxious with those births and here I am anxious again.  :-)